Sunday, May 22, 2011

遺失的美好


幾小時前,在臉書上憾“夕陽無限好,只是近黃昏”,見證了很美好的夕陽,遺憾,沒有用相機捕捉那幸福的時刻。樸實的印證了,活在當下的我,只懂得享受短暫的激情,不懂得疼惜長久的幸福。囧~lols

我啊,不是歷經滄桑的老人,也不是個博學多才的學者,只不過是一個喜歡利用文字來表達及數算我對上帝,對生命,對周遭所發生一切美好的驚嘆與幸福事件。與其抱怨發生在自己的不公平和咒詛那些不順眼的人與事,不如,細數生命中,上帝應許的幸福,小至幸福的呼吸或一個擁抱,大至驚嘆上帝那超凡創意所創造的大自然,越是細數,越是快樂,何樂而不為呢?

就是喜歡細數與見證上帝那遠遠超過梵谷或達芬奇還是其他偉大建築師與藝術家的藝術天分,我嚮往流浪在世界的每一個角落,見證上帝所創造的一切~但是,我還是沒有能夠做到~無奈,我還被當成小孩子一樣,不被放心~也被覺得是在浪費錢~囧。

這次,我就要不乖一次,我要去流浪!:P
我要去一個沒有人認識我的地方,靜靜的流浪!
啊~生命本應該浪費在美好的事物上嘛~

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

:P

Well...
i am officially in holiday :P
a damn long holiday, where this is the first day,
i have chance at home for just do nothing.
and i felt i am funking.

a long holiday,
i should have say the blessed one.
:P
many things to be done.
but lazy to do.
how?

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

浪费

我的心不见了。
今天昨天,还有大前天~
我的心都不见了~
完全没有想读书的心~

我去了图书馆,
关了电脑,
不戴耳机~
可是,
我就是读不进~

我都在尽情的浪费时间~

我,彻底的疯了~
哈哈~
还是觉得,考试不要拖太久~
“以免夜长梦多~”
lols~

上帝救我~

Monday, April 25, 2011

Private is good. Public is bad.

Another long post. Sort of complaint, sort of thought, this is what i meant change. Was talking to  Ze-Hao (a buddy of mine) yesterday while we were on the way back from Benny and SuYin's housewarming.. Nano lab of phisics school is closing down. Hmm... USM, named the APEX university, we used to have one of the best lab in the world, and we're the second university in the world which own a Nano Lab in the world, after M.I.T. (Massachusetts Institute of Technology).


Nano Lab cost a bomb for uni in term of maintenance and "experience ingredients" yet,
it does help students know more, experience more and able to explore more. On top of that,  the lab is neither supported by the faculty nor university, it's fully sponsored by a lecturer. Nevertheless, due to adult's problem, again, USM back to the normal status, applied phisics students only learn about theory side of fabrication,  but not on hand.

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This issue, gave me a fire: the fire to wrote something i wanted to write for long. the topic "Private is Good, Public is Bad" and we should proud to say "Malaysia Boleh". We have money to buy every faculty, every university department  a "public used car", cheapest range from Toyota Innova, Proton Perdana to some prestige cars which i don't know the name. The most interesting part is, we hardly see the cars being fully utilized. Perhaps, use the cars for makan and minum is the mostly-used function. But we never have money to survive good labs and other facilities for students.Thank to the tax-payers. And, thank to the good planning of university management team.


And, recently, the research wing of school first library is finally launched. And, it's the new MONUMENT for USM. Another white elephant. LOLs. A five-stories library. Fully equipt with freezing air-con, plenty of eletric plugs for laptop users...and they used to create a "WOW" effect from students about the 24-hours study room.  The layout was fine, the design was nice, again, it's just another white elephant. operation hours are 8.30am - 4.30pm, and it's a five-days operating library. While the two old one, are until 8.30am-10.30pm. and it's operating throughout weekends. Well... normally students have class from morning till evening, after 5pm, normally we have times to loiter inside library...lols...

The reasons i said it's just another white elephant are, there are two lifts operating in it. And, the lifts are only for library personnels. OUTSIDER, students are strictly not allow to use. I guess this is the sort of sustainable-policy or greener-world movement, where we minimize the usage of lifts, and save more energy. (and leave the air-con freezing.) In addition, toilets, or nicer word, washrooms too makes differences. Every floor there are two washrooms, one on the left, anoter on the right. Left hand side toilets are bigger one, again, strictly for library personnels. I took a sneaking tour inside, explored the place of interest, and realise the differences, there are four "rooms" inside, 2 squating-toilet bowls, 2 sitting-toilet bowls. And, equipped with toilet papers, napkins and hand-washers.

Unfortunely, the "customers' washroom" only half the size and with none of the 5-stars facilities. A friend of mine, marketing student, joked that, this policy is some sort of benefiting the employees so that they will be more efficiency! well...i do agreed. I guess, there should be about 20 staffs in all three libraries, maybe more from that, and i guess, each one of them should have their private toilet! These are just a few examples. And, a reason for this library not operating like other libraries in USM or commence its' 24 hours corner, "we're lack of staffs". And everyday when i am walking in the library, i can see most of the staffs are busy with social networks and playing games. Like no other libraries in abroad universities, we have all FULL-TIME librarians. They are called professional one.

There are more, should be a lot more, sort of these in USM. A few about USM Management School, i had organized a few school programmes, too, our direction are toward benefit school-staffs more towards students.

I'm not trying to be politician here. I'm sorry to be sacastics. I'm talking about efficiency. While other countries talking about education, improvement, efficiency, Malaysians still happy and show passion in racist issue, 1Malaysia Email, SEX video, and many other craps. IF we have to say efficiency, do we really need to buy every school a public used car just to fetch VIPs? do we really need to label the toilets just for staffs which there aren't many staffs. The resources are not fully utilized.

Malaysia, a very-blessed-ful country, we never lack of any natural resouces, somemore blessed with the most expensive type of petroleum (for air-crafts used.), but we never utilized the capital generated from the resources. We used money to send "astranaut" or i should say the first space traveller in Malaysia to do teh-tarik in the space, and feeding a lot other "white-elephant"-projects. And, we're proud to say, Malaysia Boleh!

Few days ago, editor from a major stream newspaper in Bahasa urged government to launch ONE Melayu Movement, talk about Chinese craps. Again, i think it's wasting resources. If, people in the nation never united as a whole, and keep say you are chinese, i'm Malay, we're never away from the beginning. And, the respected editor even talk about all PRESTIGE private universities are full with chinese and hardly see any Malay inside. And i would like to reply: If, Chinese and Indians are given a fair chance to enter public universities, why should we spend so much money for sending them to private one?

And, the public universities' teaching qualities and facilities are far less-developed than the private one, due to the unwritten rules that emphasis on benefits of small group, and not to be efficiency. Public universities are full with rules and regulations, and there is no one able to make decision, everything need to go through SENate, and due to all these cliche rules and long processes, we missed a lot of chances, wasted a lot of times. And, we're not far from the beginning...

Sadly to point a few, my faculty, School fo Management, the top management are very eager to think of recruitment of internatinal students, they do publicity in China, Indonesia and perhaps Middle East, thinking to bring more international students, and generate more income to the uni and the fac. But, they never focus on current students' welfare and benefits, until now, our "internship swap project" never got a confirm answer although we're heading to become third year students.

I can see, there are lecturers with great ideas, conferences, organizing competitions, and many other lecturers' wonderful and brilliant ideas, but all these never gain support from the school, especially from the administration office, because all these never generate income. And, our website, never update with news, everything still have to go thru school office, while other uni are on the website track. We have all the resouces, but we never exploit them, until they are gone. Not to say that public universities are bad. But, don't you think so, universities are platforms for borning more leaders of tomorrow? If we can focus more toward how to train a leader instead of bookworm that score 4.0 and know nothing about the real world, bookworms are hard to survive in the rat-race.


Like a chinese proverb, "every home has its' hard to read sutra" , which means every organiztion has its' own problem, and it's generation to generation. and formed the norms. And, we're used to it. Public is bad, private is good. talking about efficiency. Private sector will never allow inefficiency to happen if possible, and they are expert to utilize stuffs and staffs. If public sector have to improve all these, we have to change, we have to walk out from the comfort zone. Then only the success are waiting for us.

We should pray harder, PUSH-pray until something happen, we want a better Malaysia, no matter you support which political party ( i don't stand to anyone of them.), you should agree to this, we want a better Malaysia. A world class university that know how to mix and match the resources, utilized them and bring benefits to its' staffs and students. Again, change. doesn't mean we need to change government. but we need to change attitude, if i have to vote, of course, i will vote a government that able to change. :) and do what they promised. And i have a man here, my most-respected government servants, Idris Jala, i pray, pray that God will revive more servants like him, and i'm sure, Malaysia will be a better Malaysia.



Saturday, April 23, 2011

INvestment or Hobby?


People's value.
i mean how world describe one's value?
talents he/she possesses?
one's wealth?
what you say?






my mind, is not about study and exam.
it's about money, money and money.
it's sinful! lols
i'm not worshiping money.
but i'm thinking on how to invest or add value to my money and my future money

i have a few friends in uni,
a few ladies,
they are quite smart.
they used their ptptn for investment,
for unit trust, for share, for gold and FD.

i'm so dumb.
noob.
only know how to use money for foods, cloths, and entertainment.
Yea.
wasting money only.

and my newest dream,
to own a camera.
more precisely,
a DSLR.
a solid DSLR value equals to about half to a solid gold coin,
it's a trade off.
hobby or investment.

No doubt, i still think that DSLR is sort of COMPULSORY for me.
but, it's another way of wasting money.
dilemma.
it's like choosing between
bread or chocolate?
travel or branded stuffs



but well...
investment and hobby,
all craps.
i have no money now.
both also inside my dream
i tend to worry a lot,
even before the things near me!!@@




well,
i still believe that,
money is easy to earn.
but need good opportunity...

Thursday, April 21, 2011

i am nothing.



i used to dream that,
i were good at culinary,
so that i could cook nice food for my love one.
and open my own cafe..

i used to dream that,
i were good at drawing,
so that i could design my house for my love one,
and design a city then.

i used to dream that,
i were a black belt of taekwondo,
so that i could protect my love one,
and go competitions.

i used to dream that,
i were a director of my own studio,
so that i could produce clips and photos for my love one,
and impact people.

i used to dream that,
i were a good painter,
so that i could paint the town with colors i like,
and make people's day.

i used to dream that,
i were good at piano or any music instruments,
so that i could pretend to be romantic to my love one,
and get a kiss from each of THEM><






and i woke up.
i am good of nothing above.
i am not gifted to do things above.

yet,
God, the almight one,
blessed me with other skills.
for me, to bless other.

" I can do all this through Him who gives me strength. " Phi 4:13

Yea,
need to use the blessed gifts to love the one i love,
God, my family and my friends.
:)






==was lazy to finish few more chapters..another hours the exam then.====

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

sometimes when we touch LAR....



like other people,
i do prefer quality than quantity.
lols.

for certain stuffs i guess.


music.
i listen a lot of it.
sort of pop to jazz
country to R&B.

used different "Methods"
to listen.
i found that sometime...
music is nicer if we play it softly.
or played by earphones.
lols.

sometime,
used nice speaker too,
play better sound.
especially with good amplier i guess.
( has no much knowledge on it..lols)

music are meant to be enjoy, and relax.
and for me, i do listen gospels for worship and praise God!

and...
sometimes,
volume does matter.
especially when you are not alone.
lols :P

sometime it cause sound polution,
even you though it was not loud enough.
and sometime...make people sick of it.
:)
no offense.
thx